What is beginning to bubble up as you
contemplate a yearlong journey of clearing?
Have you been aware of any revealing dreams, shifts, synchronicities, or ah-has since you signed up for this course?
This has established a rhythm of writing. The aha is that even though I have far to go in making my home harmonious and functionable the way I would like, I have come a long way and my life has been simultaneously unfolding. What is bubbling up is my awareness of being on a cusp of something about to emerge. Things closing, ending—the year 2015, various trainings and group processes; also my 1851 childhood home, where 5 generations of our family have now lived is being dismantled reverently piece by piece.
I also notice how I have built connections with people far and wide especially over the past year but also the past several years in the trainings and groups in which I've participated. I am present today to how something is lacking at the local level for me and my husband, a lack of intimacy and sharing that I have experienced not as present as with those I have established connection with in places farther than me. I am aware of the way people meet and/or stay in touch and build their lives through the cyberworld. My interactions have been through this cyber/phone way more frequently than the actual physical presence contact. I never dreamed this was coming 20 years ago! After tending a somewhat local venue last night, where we didn't actually know anyone and it was a disappointing event anyway, I am left feeling like a foreigner in my local area of my childhood and ancestral roots to which I have returned to 20+ years ago. Where is the balance? My husband and I have been living rather hermit-like the past several years as we deal with feeling our home is not up to entertaining others. (Previously, as an example of ecological building design and energy use, we were often open to the public for learning but we burnt out from the existence of going back and forth between living hermit-like and then being publicly known.)
Today we have my big family Christmas gathering--my 12 siblings and families and grandchildren. I choose to cherish the stability and steadfastness of my family of origin during this time, especially as our homeplace dismantles.
My niece has been posting pictures of the dismantling process of our family homeplace. I am remembering the new light shining through lined up in the doorways and windows on a picture taken near winter solstice. Generous sun pouring through the pinhole. Getting glimpses on on a pinpoint of light.
Have you been aware of any revealing dreams, shifts, synchronicities, or ah-has since you signed up for this course?
This has established a rhythm of writing. The aha is that even though I have far to go in making my home harmonious and functionable the way I would like, I have come a long way and my life has been simultaneously unfolding. What is bubbling up is my awareness of being on a cusp of something about to emerge. Things closing, ending—the year 2015, various trainings and group processes; also my 1851 childhood home, where 5 generations of our family have now lived is being dismantled reverently piece by piece.
I also notice how I have built connections with people far and wide especially over the past year but also the past several years in the trainings and groups in which I've participated. I am present today to how something is lacking at the local level for me and my husband, a lack of intimacy and sharing that I have experienced not as present as with those I have established connection with in places farther than me. I am aware of the way people meet and/or stay in touch and build their lives through the cyberworld. My interactions have been through this cyber/phone way more frequently than the actual physical presence contact. I never dreamed this was coming 20 years ago! After tending a somewhat local venue last night, where we didn't actually know anyone and it was a disappointing event anyway, I am left feeling like a foreigner in my local area of my childhood and ancestral roots to which I have returned to 20+ years ago. Where is the balance? My husband and I have been living rather hermit-like the past several years as we deal with feeling our home is not up to entertaining others. (Previously, as an example of ecological building design and energy use, we were often open to the public for learning but we burnt out from the existence of going back and forth between living hermit-like and then being publicly known.)
Today we have my big family Christmas gathering--my 12 siblings and families and grandchildren. I choose to cherish the stability and steadfastness of my family of origin during this time, especially as our homeplace dismantles.
My niece has been posting pictures of the dismantling process of our family homeplace. I am remembering the new light shining through lined up in the doorways and windows on a picture taken near winter solstice. Generous sun pouring through the pinhole. Getting glimpses on on a pinpoint of light.
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